I must apologize for that last photo of me…my boyfriend and I had a few shots last night and we got up to all sorts of mischief. At the time when we took that photo, we thought that my eye looked like a cat eye and my tongue looked forked. Now it just looks like a mirrored photo with me sticking my tongue out. Funny how alcohol makes things look different…
This is the first night in a week that I’m sleeping without my Thomas =[ it’s so hard falling asleep without hearing to him breathing next to me. Luckily I’m only staying at my parents’ house for one night, so this isn’t too bad. But still…I miss him “/
Well I decided to apply for the apartment in case anyone was wondering so yea we will hear back in a few days
The talk went well. My parents are against moving out, but I already knew they would be.
But after we finished talking, I heard my mom crying, so I went up to her and told her I loved her. She said “you need to go” really quietly so I turned to leave and then she said “and no, you don’t.”
I don’t understand. She thinks I don’t love her because I want to move out? I’m stuck…I really want to move out, but I don’t want to hurt her =[
Sooo tomorrow is the day that I sit down and talk to my parents about moving into an apartment with my boyfriend and our friend. I hope it goes well! I mean, I am allowed to, but we have to discuss everything “/ my dad can be really difficult when it comes to talking about this, so I hope he’s in a decent mood. Idk…anyway…I might post on here about how it goes, who knows :P
Also, I have a ton of pics of my feet that I have been meaning to upload for those who are interested. I haven’t been keeping my daily log like I should have, which really bothers me “/ but today I went out in public, and I brought my chair but I never used it. I walked into a gas station convenience store and had no problems, other than looking like there’s something wrong with my legs lol. I’m pretty sure I will be able to drive soon. We shall see.
So yea…just an update I guess :P
Can I give you guys some advice
If you have full use of your legs, please appreciate the fuck out of those things
Seriously, don’t jump off anything tall and avoid giant sharp chopping devices. For real hold on to your legs as long as possible
Because let me tell you
Being in a wheelchair
p.s. I know my grammar and syntax are atrocious tonight but I am way too tired and drugged and AAUUUUGGGHHH so I really don’t care if I have run-on sentences or if I use the same word over and over okay
I swear I come up with the best conspiracy theories when I’m high and then I freak myself out like WtF MAN IT COULD BE TRUE and then I forget what I was thinking
At least I don’t remember it and be legitimately scared of it though
Because otherwise I’d be scared for a while, but this way I’m scared for a second and then I go back to being hungry or sleepy or whatever
Ok all done
My birthday is tomorrow but I’m not really excited for that cuz I’m mostly excited for my birthday present :DDD
I’m getting brand new feet yaayyyy!!! I can’t wait :D feetfeetfeetfeetfeet
My surgeries are scheduled for the 18th, so I have barely over one week. Soooo beyond stoked for this :D
1. State your name:
2. State the name that your parents almost named you:
I was pretty much always gonna be Holly
So my boyfriend does this thing where when I say something bad about myself, instead of telling me it’s not true, he kinda agrees
omg I have been waiting for a sneeze all day and I finally just sneezed twice and jfc it felt sO GOOD
So today I was looking through a bunch of old pictures my mom brought home from her trip to NC to visit her family. It’s a bunch of baby pictures of me and my siblings which is awesome because I have hardly seen any, because apparently my grandma has had them lol.
Anyway, my dad walked in and we were reminiscing together and talking about the pictures when I flipped to one of my grandma holding an unfamiliar baby in a strange looking house. I turned over the picture to read the caption on the back at the same time as my dad said “oh, that must be one of your cousins.” I read the caption and still didn’t get it, and the next few pictures were of the same unfamiliar baby, and then I realized that the baby was my older sister, the deceased daughter of my mom from before she met my dad.
It was incredibly awkward and honestly almost terrifying. I have never seen a picture of her before, so seeing her staring into the camera with a blank expression on her face honestly scared me. Also my dad knows that I know about her, so I’m not sure why he was pretending that she was a distant cousin of mine. But I wanted to talk about it just as much as he did so I played along and said something about how I don’t know much of my mom’s side so I don’t know who she is.
I just never thought that I would see her “/ it’s one thing to know about your mom’s secret dead daughter, but it’s an entirely different thing to actually see her.
In other news, I was a really really ugly baby.